Oh Endometriosis, how do I hate thee?  There are countless ways.  Far too many to list.

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At the moment, I hate that I am still awake (painsomnia) after midnight on a Sunday night / Monday morning, when I have to be up in only a few short hours to start getting ready for another busy work week.
I worked 50 hours last week, and close to the same the week before, and my body is paying the price. I guess I can’t blame you for that, as I already know my limitations.

My hubby and I are going through some intense stress right now due to situations involving lawyers, the broken disability system, and doctors, which probably isn’t helping my pain levels.
I do thank you for staying away (for the most part) during the past few weeks, when I needed the ability to work and focus, especially since my evil ATN decided to morph into what feels like a migraine, in addition to the typical 24/7 pain that it has so generously provided for the past few years.

You also waited until after my Dad’s birthday dinner yesterday, so I was granted the opportunity to enjoy spending a little quality time with my parents.40c8c0662f5904301ba15b170abadcad

You probably know that I needed to work from home this weekend and I would have appreciated you allowing me the opportunity to do that, but I guess I can’t expect you to stay away forever since we are apparently bound for all eternity.

If I could ask of you one favor, it would be for you to ease up enough for me to get at least a little sleep tonight and make it to work tomorrow.

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I’m supposed to get a massage at 1:00 pm today.  I’ve been looking forward to it for days.  It’s one of the only things that eases my Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia pain which seems to originate in my neck from Degenerative Disc Disease, or so my pain specialist believes.

I had to miss work yesterday and don’t feel any better today.

I woke up to a stabbing, tearing, ripping pain in my lower left quadrant.  It feels like my ovary is stuck to my lower intestine and my GI doctor said it probably is, from either Endometriosis or scar tissue and adhesions.  Now I’m dealing with the gastrointestinal consequences and it sucks.

The fatigue takes my breath away.  When they say that Endo can cause fatigue as severe as that experienced by those with end-stage cancer, they are not kidding.  It is real.  I can barely move.  I have no idea how I’m going to take a shower, shave, and get ready for this massage.