If you’re anything like me, you probably get nervous easily and may find yourself feeling anxious more often than not. I don’t mean the supposedly healthy, fight or flight response that nature and/or God designed to spring us into action in the midst of danger to protect us from harm. I mean serious and constant anxiety, which is more of who we are than a symptom, or the acute and sudden terror of panic attacks and the subsequent fear of when or where the next one might strike. Of course, the infinite paradigm of possible scenarios or outcomes for any given situation, would seem utterly insane to someone without this personality type. The irresistible urge to know “why”, “how”, and find out every possible detail about anything we do or topic we discuss likely drove friends, loved ones, and significant others crazy until they finally accepted, if not understood, how our over active minds work. 😉

You may know that social anxiety is linked to a high intelligence or that there’s a neurological correlation between being highly creative and mentally ill but what you may not know is that worrying – and overthinking in particular – has now been linked to creative genius. The pattern here is unmistakable: many of what people consider their worst traits are actually just the shadow sides of their greatest strengths. (What a thing to consider) In light of the latest research, here’s a breakdown of why worrying incites genius – and how maybe you can tap into it yourself.

http://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2015/10/8-reasons-why-overthinkers-and-worriers-are-usually-creative-geniuses-according-to-science/

Stress Rash

The photo shown above is my remaining “stress rash” FOUR HOURS after it arrived!!!  “Stress rash” is my unofficial, layman’s term for what happens to my skin right before, during, and/or after periods of intense anxiety, stress, sadness, or pretty much any extreme emotional reaction.  

It normally affects my chest, ears, and neck the most, but may also be visible on my legs or even my arms, in more severe cases.  

It usually starts to fade away shortly after the situation which caused it has ended.  However, there are rare circumstances which are so devastating that the physical effects may linger long after the causative situation has ended.  I suppose that could signify a greater possibility of long term ramifications from the rash’s origin.  That is my current theory.

Does anyone else experience this annoying and embarrassing physical manifestation of emotions?  I HATE it SO much because it makes it VERY difficult or impossible to hide negative emotions during some of the very situations when it would be best, or more appropriate, to repress such feelings.

This is just one of the endless examples of how our emotions can manifest in physical ways.  I’m sure that it’s not necessary to elaborate on the effect that the events surrounding the arrival of today’s stress rash have had on my pain levels.  To be honest, I would be thrilled to experience the rash alone, without excruciating pain flare ups and an inability to eat.  😢

How much stress can a person endure before they start to break; physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically?

With every blessing or moment of progress and hope, it seems as though another pending disaster is on the horizon.

I have thrown myself into exercise lately because it is something I can control. A part of my life that I can reclaim and when I do it, I feel good, in many ways. It has been helping.

Despite that positive change, there are so many things that I cannot control and that is becoming obvious at this moment.

I’ve gone from feeling feeling strong, despite my pain, to feel feeling helpless and scared, once again.

I’m turning to Yoga and Qigong in an attempt to help. Hopefully they can eventually provide an outlet for my anguish so I can meditate through the destruction and ease this feeling of impending doom.

Maybe I will go to Unity Church tomorrow, where I take the Qigong classes. There are some crises and burdens that are to heavy to bear on our own. Sometimes I believe that only that only a higher power can help lift the heavy weight and help us carry it or help carry us when we can no longer carry ourselves.

Stress levels may affect Endo

This is very true. I’m in the middle of a stress induced pain flare-up right now.

I was blessed with an almost cruel but wonderful lower pain level last week as I felt much better, physically and mentally, than I have in years. I had almost forgotten what it was like to feel even semi-normal but as quickly as it arrived, in a flash, it was gone. I would’ve almost preferred that it not happen because it was a painful reminder of the life I have lost.

This week has been very stressful, with a worsening of my husband’s condition, additional doctor appointments and an expensive skin biopsy for me, and all of the stress that comes along with it.

Each day, my pain and fatigue levels have increased and they came to a peak today, which required me to call in sick from work, which will inevitably have a domino effect of more stress caused by the guilt that I feel when I have to use sick leave which I can’t afford to lose along with the back-log of work that will be waiting for me when I return on Monday. It is a never-ending vicious cycle that wreaks havoc on my body and mind.

I’m going to try to mitigate and interrupt the cycle with a massage at the local massage school this weekend and maybe even a cheap hair trim and eye brow wax at the local beauty school. I’m jokingly calling it a white trash spa day. LOL! No offense to anyone who takes advantage of similar price reductions. When chronic illness destroys your finances, as it has ours, student services are a blessing and the only way that I can afford any “me time” or be pampered at all. Hopefully I will feel a little better by tomorrow so I can enjoy the day and avoid cancelling at the last minute. Such is life with an invisible illness. Living day by day, hour by hour, and minute by minute becomes normal.

💖 Wishing you all a low pain level day 💖

Bloomin' Uterus

StressSymptomsSo after a particularly stressful day at the office, I decided to do some writing and soul searching and (of course) research.  In all of the books and articles I’ve read, there has been a comment or chapter stating that stress may worsen Endometriosis.  But why?

How Stress Affects the Body:

Stress may trigger adrenal stress hormones, which may alter heart rates and blood flow.  It may also impair our white blood cell count, which can lower the body’s chances of fighting infection, reduce inflammation or even prevent/limit scarring. Gals with Endo know that inflammation and scarring are two critical components of a painful Endo day.  Stress may also cause or exacerbate problems such as headaches, high blood pressure, heart problems, stroke, diabetes, skin conditions, asthma, arthritis, depression, and anxiety.

Science!

In 2008, news reports state a study was conducted on seven female rats.  A team of investigators concluded that…

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