Miracle by Harvard of the South

I finally had the chance to really listen to Harvard of the South today.  Blue October has been my all time favorite band for years and with so many of the same members, Harvard of the South is AMAZING!

I am in LOVE with this song.  It touched my heart today, as it describes exactly what my hubby and I are going through now with so many life challenges.  We follow, holding out for a miracle.  We don’t just love each other tonight, our love is forever.  We have followed each other into the eye of many hurricanes.  We’re still holding out for a miracle.  We have faith that it’s coming soon.

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Miguel Rivera’s Solo Acoustic Guitar Cover of “Beat It”

This week’s Music Monday feature is simply AMAZING!!!  

Words simply cannot do justice to this level of talent, but if you listen, you will understand.  

This musical genius successfully managed to play every part of and incorporate the sound of every instrument from Michael Jackson’s “Beat It”, including VOCALS, with only an acoustic guitar.

SOMEBODY

So you dropped me

Held me by my feet and let me go

I fell between the seat, but nothing broke

I’ve yet to feel that brilliant afterglow

The one I knew of years ago

Now I’m twisted

Twisted from the waist and spun around

Promised only sky but given ground

Realized the makeup is for a clown

The clown I knew of months ago

[Chorus]

I only wanted to be somebody

So fucking bad, I came unglued

I only wanted to be somebody

So here we are now, face to face

And I’m fucking you

So you caught me!

Wishing I were better than the rest

You hit me and left bruises on my chest

And when I wouldn’t cheat

I spit upon your test

The test I tore up weeks ago

And now my fist is

My fist is for your face to cock the jaw

When I begin to rise, you start to fall

Now you know how it feels to drop the ball

The ball I threw back days ago

[Chorus]

So I’ll just stand right here for now

I should have won, but how?

I break a smart ass grin

Who let the loser win?

Let’s break a smart ass grin

Let’s let the losers win!

Going Through Changes

The first verse of this song hits SO close to home for me right now.  The reasons behind the nervous breakdown described are different but the intensity of the surrounding emotions sound much the same.  In both cases, an innate will to survive is present.  Eminem’s daughter is his grounding force and my husband and parents are my lifelines.  No matter how unbearable life becomes, as the fear continues to mount, the pain never ceases, your doctors abandon you, and your friends betray you, it is essential to realize that without you, others will be hurt and the very people that you love the most will experience immense pain.


I’m going through changes

I’m going through changes

Lately I really, feel like I’m rolling for Delph like Philly,

I feel like I’m losing control of myself, I sincerely,

I apologize if all that I sound like, is I’m complaining,

But life keeps on complicating, an’ I’m debating,

On leaving this world, this evening, even my girls,

Can see I’m grievin’, I try and hide it,

But I can’t, why do I act like I’m all high and mighty,

When inside, I’m dying, I am finally realizing I need help.

I can’t do it by myself, too weak, 2 weeks I’ve been having ups and downs,

Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying,

Around with the idea, of ending the shit right here.

I’m hatin’ my reflection, I walk around the house tryin’ to fight mirrors

A Whiter Shade of Pale : Cover by Black Label Society

Since it’s WAY past my bedtime, thanks to chronic illness and pain (with a special shout out to my dysfunctional pancreas and Sphincter of Oddi Dysfunction) I might as well share some good music. 🎸🎶🎤

I 💜💖💜 this version of A Whiter Shade of Pale.

Zakk Wylde / Black Label Society definitely do this classic song justice. I think Procul Harum would approve. 😊

Fix You by Coldplay

I decided to post this week’s Music Monday song a day early, as I know that tomorrow will be another crazy busy work day and I don’t know if I will have the time or energy to post anything when I get home.  Plus, this song really touched my heart today.

I’m not sure if I’ve ever been more of a mess than I am right now.  The fear and uncertainty that my husband and I are facing in our lives is overwhelming.  The endless physical, psychological, and emotional pain is suffocating and the weight of it all is almost too much to bear.  I’m pushing back with all of my strength just to keep my head above water but it seems like an infinite battle.  How I’ve managed not to drown already is beyond me.

However, no matter what life throws our way, I know that love, our love and our family’s love, is the light that will guide us home, as it always has, and there is no doubt that we have fixed each other, over and over again and we always will.  ❤

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