I pushed myself today and it shows. I have been stuck in a strange and unusually lengthy pain flare-up for well over a week now. I missed some work last week but tried very, very hard to work as much as I could. In doing so, my energy levels are depleted along with my endurance and ability to cope with the inevitable pain and fatigue.
Today was a tough day. I collapsed in bed minutes after walking through the door upon arriving home from work yesterday. I slept straight through the night until around 11:00 am this morning. Not even 15 hours of sleep can eliminate my fatigue. Ever.
We attended a memorial service for a good friend today. It was sad but it was more of a celebration of his life and in that it was also lovely. Afterwards we joined friends and family at a restaurant for food, drinks, and good company. Going out is such a rarity for us, due to my hubby and I both struggling with constant pain, along with my crushing fatigue, and of course, financial constraints. We had a great time but I was eventually reminded by my body that I was pushing myself too far. My hubby was too.
First of all, I wore clothing that was much less comfortable than usual, complete with high-heeled shoes, which I almost NEVER wear. I also wore normal dress pants, instead of the loose fitting yoga pants that I normally wear. After a few hours of standing, walking around, and socializing, my abdominal pain took hold and we had to leave.
Since then, I have been on the couch with my heating pad and a bad case of swollen endo belly, complete with seemingly endless GI symptoms which have prevented me from going to sleep. I tried once but that quickly ended about 10 trips to the bathroom ago.
I don’t regret any of it though. We had a nice time and most importantly, we were able to support a friend, while paying respects to another.
💖 RIP Orlis 💖
Thank goodness tomorrow is Sunday so I don’t have to work because it may very well be day light before I can get some sleep.