Happy Anniversary

Happy belated 7th wedding anniversary to my love, best friend, soul mate, and husband Billy.

Our official anniversary was yesterday, but we BOTH forgot until today. LOL! Anyone who knows me personally will know that I NEVER forget holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, etc. so this is a perfect example of what chronic pain and the subsequent stress, anxiety, and depression that it causes, will do to someone.

My ATN pain was in an unusually severe flare up from the moment I woke up yesterday until the moment I went to bed last night, so my mind could barely focus on anything else for hours on end and NOTHING would relieve or control it this time. 😥 Needless to say, the date never crossed my mind.

Regardless, of our never-ending pain and life challenges, our love is stronger than ever and we will fight whatever battles come our way together. I have faith that best days have yet to come and look forward to sharing them together.

I couldn’t ask for a better life partner and I am certain that NO ONE else could have ever been able to understand my quirky ways and even shared some of them, let alone knowingly commit to a lifetime of my bad luck on top of their own. ;).

We have endured so many unbelievable trials throughout the past decade plus two and our current battle against chronic illness and pain is just one more fight that we have and will continue to face together.

I’m so grateful that we share a strength and resilience which allows us to overcome extreme life challenges as a team, using them to strengthen our love rather than tearing our relationship apart, as so many others sadly do under the weight of similar circumstances.

The past 12 years of love and 7 years of marriage have been a crazy rollercoaster ride, filled with both terror and bliss, and I cherish it all – the good times and bad.

No one else knows the dark place that I was in 12 years ago and how a chance encounter, resulting from my need for a copy of computer software, would change the course of our lives forever. I was saved on that day, from myself and the collateral damage of prior trauma. Miraculously, the same person has saved me over and over again throughout the days, weeks, months, and years that followed.

I know that we will always be here to support, take care of, love, pick up, and save each other, as long as we both still breathe, and that gives me the comfort, peace, and strength to face each day.

Thank you Billy for seeing the true me, through all the right and wrong, and for being the angel who took my clouds away. ❤️

Angels In Everything

I’ve sat at the back of the line for years,
Wishing the world wouldn’t spin,
I give in, alone again it appears.
There were pieces of me that lived in corners on a hard wood floor.
Until an Angel walked in through my door.

Time stopped, the arch of her back grew wings.
And pulling me further from a devil to a heaven, she said “Believe.”
True peace as she looked into my soul.
She said “I’m here to show you faith, and to help you when you fall.”

Can you feel my heart,
Beating underneath these stars?
You’re the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
Live every moment like an Angel,
Flies…

I’ll whisper in your ear,
You are mine, and you will never have to be alone.
And when I pull you near,
You’ll know I love you like I never loved anyone.
So let me be the one to lift you up,
I’ll carry you home.
‘Cause now I’m here to keep you safe,
And to catch you when you fall.

Can you feel my heart,
Beating underneath these stars?
You’re the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
Live every moment like an Angel,
Flies.

Only you can see the true me,
Through all the right, and wrong.
Take hold, the best has yet to come.
(Yeah)
You’ve given me the strength to believe in my heart again!
And now we’re here to share this faith.
Stand together through it all.