I almost can’t help but find some twisted amusement, as my invisible illness (the namesake of this blog), seems almost visible these days.
There is no doubt that I have not been myself lately. As I mentioned in a previous post, I am desperately struggling to function through heightened anxiety, depression, panic attacks, and all around emotional instability.
I seem to have lost all ability to control my emotions, and even worse, my reactions and the words which spew uncontrollably out of my mouth, unfiltered, and without prior thought or regard for my surroundings and others in my presence. My stress level seems to have taken a toll and my body and mind are doing as they please, despite my constant resistance.
Not only are these changes in my personality visible (and often embarrassingly audible ~ LOL) to those around me, but my appearance has undeniably been going downhill. Continue reading